[*] candi [*] 把每一次恋爱当成是最后一次，就懂得付出。

to me, you are the world...

:: Sunday, October 16, 2005 ::

how long since i posted here. due to the bz schedule of work club maple and all the lil stuffs. alot of things happened since then. hard to relate out..but :S

my another site would be ccandii.multiply.com
theres pic n so on.. so =) so drop by there.

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 6:42:00 PM

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:: Sunday, August 28, 2005 ::

4days i never blogged. thought of blogging on friday though. but procrastination brought me here. aiks. nevertheless, went to devils for the first time leh.. guohao brought me there =D guess what i wore - Polo T shirt. lmaO, i didnt wear that to club b4. still thEn... hmm.. didnt wanna see someone there, but, i think its just my luck. of all locations in devils, he is just on the next table. i feel like fainting straight away (omfg). i made the other way to the dancefloor. didnt quite like the music(oops). sO, we hopped to the live band's area which were playing RETRO (wheeee! thanks god!). still then, i wasnt on alcohol, so i didnt really dance much.devils outing ended @ 2. guohao suggested tO gO black, hmmm. we walked over tO black. likE @ devils, guohAo siGNed me in again. inside black, i lost 5-10 all the way (damn!). drink drink drink, he asked if im too thirsty... i feel like strangling him. then we danced all the way to 4.30 i think. the crowd seemed to reduce alot, so we decided to make a move. its really sweet of a guy to send u home to ur doorstep. i reached home at 5 plus i think. then guohao took another cabby home. i bathed. i rested. i went to slp. i woke up sat evening 6pm. omg lor... uncountable msgs n missed calls... =_= jus dont feel like replying. haha. i login msn. questions keep coming in. "hey u found new guy? ; hey! wad does 0409 mean ; hey 4d number ar 0409?"
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. its my birthday..duhss.im gonna make my birthday memorable this yr, no matter who is celebrating with me. XJ called to go black actually. then for dont know what reason, the black outing was cancelled (bOohOo T_T). i mapled all the night till today 10am. finally shuang to go ZZZz. RvD korkor called @ 4 to wish me advanced happy birthday. lol. so sweet of him! forget to tell him, hes the 1st to wish me. haha. :X im now fully awake. talking to a very long lost friend, Mark. got to know him thru IRC. that time was attached with Susu. then dont know wad happened... aiya.. he so kelian like tt. Susu was a model... so pretty. :X k lar.. i go blow my nose.. @ night then blog.

wen.

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 4:09:00 PM

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:: Thursday, August 25, 2005 ::

陈晓东 - 不想睡
夜了为什么还不想睡
除了你我还在思念谁
我并不是害怕黑
寂寞却喜欢把整个我包围
好想再重新和你爱一回
让伤心的回忆通通都给化成灰
曾对你说没爱无所谓
其实自己脆弱不知道应怎么面对
oh~
故意在街上给冷风吹
等著你来我温暖我心扉
终于也是掉下眼泪
爱情不知不觉的不翼而飞
请你永远都把我麻醉
那不用醒后日日夜夜为你心碎
你的爱曾经是绝对
我一辈子都会为我的愚昧而后悔
oh~

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 2:45:00 PM

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its already 4.51am, another slpless night i guess. im here to splurt all my lil whinings to u again. im utterly disppointed by him. whoever u know u r. i know u dont even bother to read thru my blog. i dont know how to express my thoughts to u. :( felt so moody. drowning myself in clubbing & music doesnt help. i dont know wad will.

i jus want live a new life. anyone please help me get out of this shyt.
cedrick dave dusk jarvis chris jin liang alvin ming haohao kendrick luis ann shuilin junkai koren sam
in & out of my life.

我好怀念你刚爱上我的那一天。

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:: Wednesday, August 24, 2005 ::

as usual.. i couldnt sleep.. force myself to sleep at about 9.30am.. when adam started his lectures.. woke up by clay's sms. "stupid mummy slp somemore bcome pig" -.- but i really need sleep. i went on slping.. till 1+... sms adam then went back to slp again.. finally woke up @ 4-5+ not sure. mum's awake by then. she went to buy dinner for me n dm. aikks... so sian.. why i whole day so moodless.. i also dont know.. after that i went to talk to floyd.. about the hk trip.. as promised if i got the job... :/ he is so into the trip i think. funny bendan. anyway the conversation brought us to applying makeup -.- seriously i dont know how to apply a decent makeup. lol. maybe anyhow anyhow still i know. 16th sept start work. hope that this job isnt as tough as 7-11's.

my bdae is going to be a lonely one. all alone. too many business to care. i think im a suxor.

Did Candi even existed in your world? i guess not.

-purpled.

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 12:26:00 AM

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:: Tuesday, August 23, 2005 ::

i just need someone to give me attention & love me.
i have been left alone for so long.
why hasnt he come to me.

has he already appeared?
i dont know.

my birthday wish: u.

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 7:25:00 AM

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:: Friday, August 19, 2005 ::

i cant tell u i care.

i cant tell u but the feeling i know its there.

i cant tell u i want to stay.i cant tell u i love u cos'
u might go away.

how do i say goodbye to someone i never had.

why do tears fall for someone who never be mine.

why is it that i miss someone i was never with.

why do i love someone whose love can never be mine.

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:: Thursday, August 18, 2005 ::

it has been a long time ever since i blog. then i realised, people actually come in to my blog to read. felt so "xin wei". anyway i came to pen down my thoughts this week. :( it hasnt been a good week. so busy. aiikkks. i think i have poor time management, i dont have time for my work. maybe thats because i played too much maple. will be cutting down on maple soon. :( regarding bgr issues, just dont feel like mentioning it. but its kinda of funny, keat actually provided me some choices, which i think was "lol". :P he say that if Dusk cannot make it, can choose darkfaithX, or Asianic, or Jin, or etc etc... -___-;

maybe im still not ready for another serious r/s. i dont really like to get restricted. i love to do what i like to do. i know my limits, so u doesnt need to worry for me. i shall wait for the day to come. maybe we might just end up together :) else, let fate do its job.

lil purple flutterby

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 11:28:00 AM

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:: Wednesday, August 10, 2005 ::

lovynn kan - 最后一次

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前

我想对你说我爱你

在你怀里舍不得放弃

心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛

这次告别就不能再相遇不能再陪你

但不要忘记你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了去了好远的地方

不能再陪你看日出等不到天亮

所有回忆没去却并不容易

生死由天决定不要太伤心在

我最后一次闭上眼睛之前

我想对你说我爱你

在你怀里舍不得放弃

心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛

这次告别就不能再相遇不能再陪你

但不要忘记

你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

我永远爱你

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 2:50:00 AM

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:: Wednesday, July 06, 2005 ::

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
Well as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love is suicide
You say you've cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore
I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance girl
I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe, I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you
I know you know we've had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
Well I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
And baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your Valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine
I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you
I wasn't there when you were happy
And I wasn't there when you were down
Didn't mean to miss your birthday baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out
I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for ...
I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you
When you breathe I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you ...

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 1:35:00 PM

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:: Thursday, June 23, 2005 ::

u cant make a rainbow w/o a little rain.

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:: Tuesday, June 21, 2005 ::

updated some of the stuffs here n there. kinda bz with my life so.. haha.. i dont care abt blogging also.. its not so of a daily routine wad. :P

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 11:42:00 AM

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:: Monday, January 24, 2005 ::

A man going abroad to work leaves his fiancee crying. "Don't worry, I will write you everyday," he said. For years he did write her. But since he washappy with his job, he had no immediate plans of going home. One day, he received a wedding invitation. His girlfriend was scheduled to be married.To whom? To the mailman bringing regularly the letters of her boyfriend!Indeed, distance does make hearts flounder. The poor boyfriend surely explained, "What went wrong? I sent her letters, chocolates, and flowers."When relationships go wrong, the list of things given and done for the person usually crops up. We say, "I have given you this and that... I havedone these things for you." It seems that love is simply proven by the bestowal of gifts and favors. But while presents are important, love demandswhat is basic: 'presence of the beloved'. I have observed for instance, the orchids of my mother's. When she's away for a long time, they are unhealthy and many of them wither. But when she is around, they bloom with beautifulflowers. My mother does nothing exceptional. She just spends much time talking and caressing them. I guess persons all the more require a caringpresence. Love is fundamentally a commitment to a person.We may be committed to our business, job, hobby, sports and clubs. But strictly speaking, they cannot love us back. Only a person can love us in return, and for that matter, the highest commitment as human beings, is spending time with those persons we love. And since people need affection and nourishment, material things can only help up to a certain degree infostering love. But it can never replace the greatest gift of presence becuz everyone needs someone - be it friends, parents, siblings or simply that'special' one. Being there for someone need not necessary mean having to say alot. Words are sometimes redundant. Remember that 'presence' (to be there for someone) is more than enough."What Is Most Valuable Is Not What You Have In Your Life, But Who You Have In Your Life" In our pursuits, let's not neglect spending quality time with the most important person of our lives.

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:: Wednesday, December 15, 2004 ::

ENFP>
What's there to say about you? You're an initiator of change and are keenly in tune to possibilities... you're enthusiastic, and it's contagious...you're tireless in the pursuit of newfound interests... You can anticipate the needs of others, and offer them needed help and appreciation. You bring zest, livelihood, and fun to all aspects of your life...
You're agreeable, sociable, outgoing and like to imagine yourself in the future... who will you marry? what type of work will you do? where will you live? All questions you ask yourself...you like to keep your options open...you're imaginative...curious...you prefer to understand than judge..
You see endless possibilities. You hate to be boxed into anything -- like a career -- for life...so you hesitate and resist making decisions...always look for new and novel...
You like a learning environment where the teacher takes a personal interest in you...You're motto might be: "There's always a better way or a better answer.."... when you're committed to something, you are enthusiastic to the point of preaching to the whole world about it (...like the Storm Palace?)
Your style of organization is... well, personalized. Others don't really see you as organized, though, do they? YOU know what's where, and there's a "method to your madness," huh?
You have a hard time separating work from leisure, since you have fun while you work. You're always on the lookout for new things... you like learning with others, so you'll invite 'em to join you at films, plays and classes.
When you fall in love, you study the other person in every way. The one you fall in love with is "the best ever" a lot, huh? Sheesh. But others feel unconditionally loved by you ....you fall head over heels and get in love FAST. You are charming...full of vitality...you treat others with sympathy, gentleness, and warmth...
Last part: watch out for losing your focus 'cause you wanna try too many ideas at the same time... you don't prioritize, so you can overload...also, because you're just a fun-loving animal, you might not complete important work and basic responsibilities...
ENFP: "Every day, New Fantastic Possibilities"

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:: Sunday, December 05, 2004 ::

during this period of time... ok for like 3weeks plus... i think i learnt quite aloT. operate/wash/handle machinessss :P have had lotsa fun too. entertaining stupid senile irritating customers and chatting with regular cusstomers?
ohya... not forgetting the 2 lil girls.. who keep bullying me.. yest was the final day... hah. then i saw the two lil girls again.. they asked me for presents again. i gave them one key chain each. that was from the free gift thing. then they gave me the light splint, a light key chain and a candy. i was like so touched... they actually give present to pple they bully? lols... shall meet them again i think cos its like... their parents are working ard ttz area too. :) after that,it looks as if im going to die or something or wad... -.- i dont know la.. i was so sianz nothing to do @ the store... then close to ten o clock yest. something happened. i checked someone's IC. hah. okok enuff of that.. i know about it can already. nvmz. i start my lil business too. lols. selling gold to kids there. hah!~ anyway while working i have had always been thinking of someone :P

ok. i shall stop here as i jus wana someone to know/see abt this! :)

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 10:12:00 AM

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:: Thursday, October 21, 2004 ::

Worry

does not remove the sorrow of tomorrow~

it removes the strength of today~

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:: Tuesday, October 19, 2004 ::

how is he... - am worrying T-T -
anyway... i couldnt study, i dont know why. just couldnt get into my head~ argh...
well... im prepared for the worst.

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:: Wednesday, September 08, 2004 ::

Woo. Was up till 4am last night. then woke up @ 6am. cOoL? lolS. wEnt for a baThe then wEnt tO haVe breaKfasT with my brOther @ the maRket. Wheee~ was late and tOok cab. -.- lolS. Nvm. vOlleybaLL waS fun! i finally MaNage tO get the baLL Over the Net. wAhaha ;x aNywaY. i Picked up a 7250 which joyce sAW. but it b-Long to my cLass matE. sO i returned. if not.. then i........ liao.. wahahaa ;X yea. then Went fOr Lms. the rOle plaY waS disaStrous, luckily i managEd tO pull Thru' >.<" Hee~

hMmm after Lms cLass. i went tO eat wiTh jiamIn @ c1. she wAs enjoying her fOod while iM drinking Only orange juice :/ nvm. i mus reSist the temptatioN(anyway i ate chocolatEs jus now. haha ;x). after thAt we wEnt tO chinatown ANd Shop. bOught a bra ;x a beach wear shorts and erm.... air freShener :D

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:: Monday, September 06, 2004 ::

maybe its a simple one (:

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:: Wednesday, August 25, 2004 ::

dUh.

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:: Tuesday, August 24, 2004 ::

I wanna meet pple who owe me money~~~~~

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 5:08:00 PM

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:: Thursday, August 19, 2004 ::

http://www.x-woods.com/games/differences/loader.swf [photo hunt]its really really very very very cool. try it ^-^

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 1:07:00 PM

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:: Wednesday, August 18, 2004 ::

my baby ask me to write abt how much i love him in this blog -.=

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:: Tuesday, July 27, 2004 ::

yaY tMr gOt vOllEybaLL!! =D

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:: Thursday, July 22, 2004 ::

yay.. ending of week 4 of my school liao... super fun + busy in school... my life nvr felt so packed b4.. hmmm... my classmates ar.. damn funny lor... but i think lack of abit of class spirit =.= hmm.. get to know their "true colour" when it comes to proj. >.< abit... *aheM* lol..
neway its still the beginning.. still forgivable.. hope they will chg.. =]

hee my pic >.<

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:: Wednesday, July 14, 2004 ::

c
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:: Thursday, July 01, 2004 ::

I HATE SOME ASS FROM KALLANG!

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:: Monday, June 14, 2004 ::

i wENt tO geNtiNg fOr the lAst 3 daYS.. itS quite eNjoyaBle... ^-^ i tOok sOme picS.. thEn plAyed the themeparK tHere.. play arcaDe.. nuA there.. gOt see pple plaY Gb there.. bUt one hr rm10..... sO expEnsIve.. then nVR plaY lOr... there @ night veRy cOld.. luCky i alWays wear my sweater aRd.. hMm.... sudDEnlY thouGht of somethiNG... i really miSsss U! my dEar blOg... :)

nothinG really matterS to me, when u're gone.

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:: Thursday, June 10, 2004 ::

yEst rigHt.. i wOke UP in HurrY on A RainY dAY!!! (oMg.. :( how nice to slEEp..) thEn i RuShed dOwn to NP to tAKe mY nOtebOok... HeeHeE.. nice lAPpy.. :D white in cOloUr.. i liKe it vEry vERy muCh... i gO hoMe..sTrAigHt awAy configure thiNgss.. thEn tranSfer sOngs.. thEn dO some UPdaTe.. tiLL.. i wAn tO liNk the LappY to mY computEr.. how aR.... i gOt the Lan caBle liaO.. but i CAnnoT geT ontO the internET ~~~ *PouT* iF therEs aNy kiNd SOuL... plS teaCh me.. thaNks ^^*

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:: Tuesday, June 08, 2004 ::

Hehe.. toDay Was a BuSy dAy fOR me.. i meAn yeST~ ^^ i WOke up @ 10+ to plAy o2jam LOL.. thEn play until aBout 12.20 then i quicklY gO bathE.. thEn i Head fOr sChOoL! i go orientatiOn lOr.. VEry siaNz.. gRr.. gAn bO liaO.. lisTen tO the hOst cRap.. ASK who is JuDges fOr sg idolS.. dUH.. aNywAy.. i wAs wiTh maOmaO.. quiTe a nice gUy la.. he kEep me accompAnied By tellIng me all the gB stuffS.. we were crAppiNg awaY.. thEn @ there i sAW liyiN + her Bf.. leNg yeOw .. that blOody diamond WAnd vIscount aka Sheng dA.. i saw tingz bf.... i sAw wei An.. i saW xiuliNg.. i saw alOt of ppLe... HMmm.... the whoLe thing End @ 4.45~ sheNg da's grp leFt @ 3++... dAMn it.. they are faSt... we are stuck in the center~ we cANt Escape! *POUT* then nvm.. later we rush down to plaza singapura fOr our guild outing~ LOL.. i saw hmm.. saw sentiment... then yunhui88.. then ah jes..!! LOL he damn cute.. LOL.. then hmm guanhao.. and jeff... then also got see elvin... tankokmeng...yaya.. still GOt my aiaI tiNgz13 :D hmm.. i hope i nvr miss anyone out ^^*

we went tO the new arCade.. we get free top upS.. LOL! so soNg.. thanks tO maomao.. he gAve me 3.... @ firSt is sentiment jeff jes n me qie DAytona.. got two other pple.. i manage to GEt 3rd ^^* thEn after thAt.. we went tO plaY bIshi Bashi(me sentiment n jeff)~.. abit nervous.. LOL.. lalala.. then later i play the "beatmania" look alike machine with guanhao.. the machine simply sUcks... cannot do anything then i die!.. but nvM.. free de.. LOL.. then me n tingz qie puzzle fighter.. i almoSt completE!!! then that dalsem ( dont know how to spell) GIve me AHHH-DOOO-KATTT then i die! nbnbnbbnb...i think @ thiS time.. gUanhaO n jeff leFt liaO... jeff sAY he wEnt tO meet JacqueS!! DUh~

Hmmm.. then after that... wE went tO chill Out @ a cafE liKE bAR.. ^^* then thats the time we met tankokmenG.. sO builD up! i tio chua.. the last time i saw him he very skinny one.. in tekong.. lol.. after that we went for dinner @ pasta mania.. me juanlee maomao tingz ahjes yunhui88 and sentiment.. then we suggest togo for langaminG... lOl..thatS lame! but i Like iT~ lolX... we played fOr like 1hr.. thEn we leFt le.. :) we went hOme! oh yA.. ahJes wAs sO fuNny.. as he could not Stay Out laTe.. he bluffed his mum he went fOr movIe.. lol.. then he dont know the movie time for mondAY~..whr gOt midnight one XIA~!! LOL

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:: Friday, June 04, 2004 ::

she's lookin out the window, watchin the rain drops as they pass by,

hopin and prayin that the rain hides what she cries.

she calls his name wishin he was still near,

cuz every memory she thinks of makes her drop a tear.

she imagines him rappin his arms around her like he used to do,

she remembers all the times he whispered in her ear "i love u"

she can taste his lips, so soft and so sweet,

she still has the feeling of when their lips would meet.

she yearns for his hand to run gently down her face,

she wants him to know that in her heart is his place.

she still remembers every word he said cuz to her every word was true,

the words that said what she should and should not do.

she feels the warmth of his hand as if it was being placed in her own,

she still thinks he luvs her cuz to her luv is what he has shown.

so her tears are from knowing his heart she can no longer touch,

and it hurts her to think that she still luvs him so much.

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:: Wednesday, May 26, 2004 ::

dOnt trip mE tO maKE me faLL for U...
dOnt diSappEar tO make Me miSs u..
dOnt asK mE fOr tRutH whEn u knOw thE one i lOve iS u.... :(

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:: Sunday, May 23, 2004 ::

i guess its my lowest point in life now...

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:: Saturday, May 22, 2004 ::

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes......
Your gone

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

aww.. a nice song.. that i finally know how to sing.. :(

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 5:45:00 AM

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:: Wednesday, May 12, 2004 ::

i jus added a new midi...
from mltr - that's y u go away
sad song right?
i listen i wanna cry liao.... :(

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 4:09:00 AM

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:: Friday, May 07, 2004 ::

Your Heart is Red

What Color is Your Heart?
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. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 1:30:00 PM

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Rhythm Of The Rain

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain
Telling me just what a fool I've been
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain
And let me be alone again

Now the only girl I've ever loved has gone away
Looking for a brand new start
Little does she know that when she left that day
Along with her she took my heart

Rain please tell me now does that seem fair
For her to steal my heart away when she don't care
I can't love another when my heart's somewhere far away

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain
Telling me just what a fool I've been
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain
And let me be alone again

Oh the only girl I've ever loved has gone away
Looking for a brand new start
Little does she know that when she left that day
Along with her she took my heart

Rain won't you tell her that I love her so
Please ask the sun to set her heart aglow
And rain in her heart and let the love we knew start to grow

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain
Telling me just what a fool I've been
Oh I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain
And let me be alone again

When the rain comes
They run and hide their heads
They might as well be dead
When the rain comes

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 1:02:00 PM

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:: Monday, May 03, 2004 ::

Baby won´t you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don´t wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

You´re the one who set it up now you´re the one to make it stop
I´m the one who´s feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

I won´t forget the way you´re kissing
The feeling´s so strong were lasting for so long
But I´m not the man your heart is missing
That´s why you go away i know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

I won´t forget the way you´re kissing
The feeling´s so strong were lasting for so long
But I´m not the man your heart is missing
That´s why you go away i know

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don´t know which way to go
There ain´t so much to say now between us
There ain´t so much for you
There aint´t so much for me anymore

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 11:39:00 PM

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Wonderful Tonight
by Eric Clapton

It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear.
She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair.
And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?"
And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight."

We go to a party and everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady that's walking around with me.
And then she asks me, "Do you feel all right?"
And I say, "Yes, I feel wonderful tonight."

I feel wonderful because I see
The love light in your eyes.
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize how much I love you.

It's time to go home now and I've got an aching head,
So I give her the car keys and she helps me to bed.
And then I tell her, as I turn out the light,
I say, "My darling, you were wonderful tonight.
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight."

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i hate/love myself..!

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:: Sunday, April 25, 2004 ::

wow.... i mia for a few days again... lol... todae i went out with jarvis... eat the BIG O @ wheel lock place... @ 5pm like tt... the food *YUMYUM!*... esp. the waffles :D~ then after that we go to spin the capsule... got pooh key chain.. and MOnChhiChi! sO cutEeee.e....... sAD... no pic... mY bluE tOoth cannOt usE... dOnt knOW how TO inStaLL.. =X... ok.. thEn gO wiSmA bOdy sHOp... gOt ofFEr noW.. lol =X 29.90 for the whoLe SEt... incLuDEs toilettE+lOtion+shoWer gEl..
i wAnna gO clubBiNGggggggggggggg.................... ><" sIaNz... :/ now iS gunbOuND dOwn thEn come ADD bLOg.. tMd.. alWAYs doWN full of ASS shyT..! nB.. GUnbOunD gO clOSE dOwn la!

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 4:09:00 AM

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:: Sunday, April 18, 2004 ::

im putting everything from 2003 down so i could carry on my journey.. i did some small updates of my blog...
i hope it had been error-ed free... ^^* if not.. then im sorry.. i couldnt see whrs the fault... lol.... hope u enjoy surfing ard in my blog...oops... i almost forget... i also added a new column... heehee..
<<<<<<<<<<<< nice? :P

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 4:02:00 AM

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:: Wednesday, December 31, 2003 ::

weeee........ new year is coming...
i am going to re-do the whole blog when i am free...
went to orchard and bugis just now... took photo with bisbis.... later gonna go count dwn.. heh..
i wonder where i will be going...
hmmmmmmm........ must go look for new job liao!! :D
$_$ hurhur~* >.<

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 10:49:00 PM

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:: Thursday, December 04, 2003 ::

o.o whart should i say.... i sing ya a song.. by kai.. twinkle twinkle lil stars...

twinkle twinkle lil star
how i wonder what u are
up above the world so high
like a diamond in the sky
star light
star bright
the first star i see tonight
i wish i may
i wish i might
have the wish i had tonight

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 5:14:00 PM

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:: Tuesday, December 02, 2003 ::

love is all around.... feel it... give it....

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 12:33:00 AM

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:: Sunday, November 30, 2003 ::

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget...............................

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 5:50:00 PM

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another sundae is here eh... hmmm..... whr should i start... thursdae went to swimming @ katong... so long no swim liao... getting a lil tired only after 3laps.. oh oh =X... then went for dinner and went home.... keke... fridae neh... go zouk @ night... but went for the fashion show only... saw my cousin and his fren, yong yuan. this guy super cock one... last time come my hse during new year to win away all the money @#$@$@#%^... super suaning also.. anyway, saw him and he's still the same... argh~ suan pple. hmmm........ yesterdae ar.... go bo liao places then bo liao zho bO... muahahahahahaa.... er... also got eat a very nice dinner.... steamboat pomfret... hurhur... maybb next time bring my mother go eat! (then i can go again) HAHA! =x

latEr dOnt knOw go whR.... Haix... mayB gO asK fOR jOb. =) oR gO cUt mY haiR... wEe...*

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:: Monday, November 24, 2003 ::

i dyed my hair half way through... now look like shit... ji tao no moood (-_-)zZ....

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 10:15:00 PM

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:: Sunday, November 23, 2003 ::

You're an ESTP

ESTP

You're action-oriented...pragmatic (look it up!)...outgoing and realistic. In situations that require resourcefulness, you use your quickness and flexibility to find the most efficient route to accomplishing whatever needs to be done.

You are lively....entertaining...fun...like to be where the action is.... like to participate fully in what's going on.... you are direct with your comments and don't mince words.... you are at your best in situations that require an orientation to the present and a direct, no-nonsense practical approach.

You're active, easygoing, and spontaneous...extremely realistic...curious and keen observers...charming and popular...you're outgoing, versatile and have an endless supply of jokes and stories for whatever situation you find yourself in...ok, you're funny too! You can be good at easing a tense situation...

You like(d) school because it gives/gave you a place to meet friends and to be involved in activities. Oh, yeah. Education and academics were there too, but you don't care so much about THAT. You're action-oriented...likely to be on a sports team or other after school activities.

You'd rather DO something rather than read about others doing activities. You like hands-on experience...you like it when expectations are realistic and when the explanations for a task are clear. You like teachers that are entertaining and make learning fun and active.

You like crises 'cause you can dive right in and fix things. You like to make things happen quickly.... you're willing to take risks, aintcha? You can take charge readily, ESPECIALLY in crises...you can react and make it work...you love leisure and kicking back...you're probably involved in sports, as a fan if not a player...

You're a daredevil at times...as a fan, you're pretty animated and excitable. you like collecting things related to a hobby...you like people who "live on the edge." A perfect partner for romance would be one you can do fun things with...sharing life's up and downs...you like to use your persuasive- ness and fun-loving nature to win over the opposite sex...

You don't like dull routine, even in your relationships....it makes you feel confined...you're pretty straightforward with the relationship, including recognizing when it's over....

Watch out for these things, though...don't over-rely on improvisation.. while you might like putting out those fires, that's no reason to create an emergency...you'll just overload from stress...don't sacrifice follow- through in your work to meet the problems of the moment...don't get too focussed on material things and ignore the things that count, like other people...stop being so blunt and direct! Think about others' feelings...

ESTP: "Everyone Seems Too Proper"

tAke ur pErsOnaL tEsT @ http://haleonline.com/psychtest/

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 1:41:00 PM

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er.. updated. =)

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:: Monday, November 17, 2003 ::

discover what candy you are @ quiz me

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 2:43:00 AM

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:: Friday, November 14, 2003 ::

I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind)
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty

I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy)
I never wanted to live a lie

If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind)
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty

Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind)
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
Then I'm guilty

What am I supposed to do
Then I'm guilty
All I wanna do is speak my mind (Gulity)
Then I'm guilty
I'm prepared to testify
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
I'm Guilty

one very nice song that i am listening just now.... Blue - Guilty
it's really very nice...

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 4:45:00 PM

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:: Tuesday, November 11, 2003 ::

the poem he wrote to me goes like this ::

Morning has just been out with dew drops of mist,
For me it was just another day of normal midst.
Certainly the essence of the nature beauty,
Does speak of your presence which I felt really.
Your beauty so think that it intoxicates me.
Your voice so sweet that it drunkens me.
Once forgo nights of enchanting stars twinkling,
Here I am always with you chatting.
Absence of loneliness has long been forgotten,
Because you came into my life long from hidden.
Maybe words do not really mean much in expressing,
I am contented to use them as tools for composing.
What dreams may come indicating the sweetness of this world,
Countless though may seem too quick too soon to twirl.
Little have I know you though this much,
You made me felt with my presence not in the lurch.
Procrastination may have seen this poem come too long,
But i wish it hopefully come as tones of a song.
Ah! Blinking stars do really speak of universal love,
I pray that they are not distant apart.
Such a joy to know someone like you,
Ever-lasting as it seems for someone like you,
Is here to stay,
For no price can pay.

(very nice right? *touched*) =~

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:: Saturday, November 08, 2003 ::

mOndAe aMaTHs....
o.O
miSSSSssssssssssssssssssss hIm alOtttttttttttttttttttt >.<~

--- * One night, a sTar sAid tO me.. "iF he hurTs u sO muCh aNd mAkeS u cRy, wHY dOnt yOu leAve hIm....?"
i lOokeD baCK and sAiD.... "if thE mOon OutshiNeS u, wOuld yOu eVer leAve thE sKY?..."

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:: Wednesday, November 05, 2003 ::

sO sorRry... sO long time nvR blOg... cOz i wAs bO eng witH my olVl... *muaCk blOg* keke... aNywAy... i gOing fOr papEr nOw... wIsh me gOod luCk OkAy!
i miSs him alOt alOt alOt alOt (to thE powEr Of infiNitY!!) >.<~

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:: Monday, October 27, 2003 ::

i will be waiting for the dae to come... i know its near.... i know and i really know..........

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:: Sunday, October 26, 2003 ::

yeSterdAe wEnt tO zOuK's JUICE event wiTh zheNnie, jaRviS, jOanne aNd saW alOt mORe liKe keGEn blah blah bLAH... hurhur..... quitE nuA.... hEng dAnny givE invitEs.... thEn gOt frEe eNtry thEre... + free flOw vOdkA... although i only tOok in 2 glaSses... :D thEn alsO gO home eArly.... vEry siAnz... tOdAE slEep till 3+.. gO tO bugiS with ZhenniE anD jarviS... hurhur~~~~ gO v8 cAfe... :D~
!! ChickErn baKEd riCE !!
wAh... all thE salivA come out... *sluuuuuuurpp* overall a nice dAE... thEn latEr gO stuDy liaO! till i slEep...

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:: Friday, October 24, 2003 ::

finally i got the the pictures back again.... hurhur~* (^*ChEeZe//cHEerS*^)

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:: Thursday, October 23, 2003 ::

yOu are gOd's giFt... i aM truly bleSsEd...

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:: Monday, October 20, 2003 ::

hEh.... 6dAEs nO blOg liaOx..... cOz vEry bZ~* s@turDae 1St tiMe gO cEntrO!! lOlzz..... nOt baD lEr... bUt the aIrcOn vERy cOoool... >.< *bRrrrrr* aNd alsO sUndAE nO eXtRa leSsOn.... sBs... hee.... tOdAe iS mOnDae thEn nO gO sChoOl.... slAckiNg arOuNd... tMr muZ gO sCh piA abIt... *gOd bleSs* wenWeN nOw vEry hAppy..... *hEeeeeeeeZ* this the phOtO i hav takEn yeStErdAE witH my cAmerA... haPpY musT taKe sOme pictUrE tO kEEp aS memOrieS!! loLx...

mAyB~ mY lOve will cOme baCk sOmedAe~ Only heAveN knOwS... aNd mAyB oUr heArts wIll fINd thEir wAyS... oNLy heAvEn knOwS~ aNd aLL i cAn dO iS hOpe aNd prAy~~~ 'cOz heAveNS knOwS.....

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:: Tuesday, October 14, 2003 ::

blog updated.

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:: Monday, October 13, 2003 ::

Pissed off.

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:: Friday, October 10, 2003 ::

* a sad thing in life is that when you meet someone who means alot to you, and only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.......

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:: Thursday, October 09, 2003 ::

if my life continues to move on like these...
i will go crazy in no times...
wad a unlucky month..!!!! >.<

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 8:11:00 PM

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:: Tuesday, October 07, 2003 ::

let my tears, sorrow and unwillingness go unnoticed.

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:: Monday, October 06, 2003 ::

do you have these symptoms...?

*mushy feelings in your heart ...
*you stare into each others eyes without blinking...
*you can't wait to see the other person again...
*you can't wait to hear the other person's voice again...
*when you hear the other person's voice - you just melt...
*you have a hard time saying "goodnight" or "goodbye"...
*you never run out of things to say to each other...
*you both start to say the same thing at the same time...
*you start saying "I miss you" a lot...
*you can't stop thinking about the other person...

it could be love...

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:: Sunday, October 05, 2003 ::

dont ever give up if you still wanna try;
dont ever wipe your tears if you still wanna cry;
dont ever say you dont love her if you cant let her go.....

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:: Thursday, October 02, 2003 ::

aM i thE One u wiLL lOve.....? aM i thE One yOu wiLL miSS befOre u clOSe ur eYEs tO sleEp? aM i thE oNe u wiSh tO bE witH...? wiLL u lOve mE cOntinUousLy, uncHgiNg? -sObx- :(

cUrrEntly i aM:

The current mood of juz_another_devil@hotmail.com at www.imood.com

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:: Sunday, September 28, 2003 ::

Hurt is what I'm feeling
Loneliness has become my new best friend
Tears seem to always appear
Happiness and love are things of the past
What we call the beginning is often the end
And to make an end is to make a beginning
The end is where we start from

if a tear fell from my eye whenever i wished you are by my side, i would have a river of tear coursing thru' the lonely street of love...

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i love you

i love the way you smile at me,
and help to keep me sane,
i love that when i look at you,
i fall in love again.
i love the way you give me strength
when i am feeling down
and when i find it hard to smile,
you help me lose my frown.
i love your sense of humour
and trust in completely
but most of all i love the way
your love is just for me.

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finally home.... (--,)
yesterdae i went to find shiping weiming yeeeeeehui keith... go far east then din know liyin was thr too.... we went to ms soon w/o liyin (she go hm). reach thr watch soccer!! O.O haha... so lame... anyway, we were waiting fo keith sis lor... when they reached we went to club3 and 'enjoy' the techno.. feeling rather weird at first... :\ the cb bouncer.... hai dont wan to say la... we go dance dance lor.. then 1st time drink martell~~~ omg..... abit queer the taste... then i go drink nid. @ first feel nothing, then wah~ sibeh hot... >.< thru'out my stomach. sehz in my fren car n fell aslp till i reach amk. i go mingming house rest. morning he brought me to mac haf breakfast @ kovan.. at first.... hee.... then i went to take bus with him back home... i accompanied him till he alighted the bus and went to serangoon to take mrt (nel) to sengkang... then take 371 to xms for amaths lesson. reach rather early @ around 10.30am..... after the lesson, i rush to meet my frenz @ orchard... @ 2pm... meet a new fren call wanling... quite cute looking.. keke... and the burpies... -_- ~! @ ard 3pm.. wanling left. and burpies n me walked our way to PS... we decided to watch a movie... we bought tix for 28 days later.... it was so scary the movie.. about virus that spreads in blood.... (sounds abit like sars eh? - but its worst then sars...) anyway we rush again to buy the bet 5min b4 7pm... ho ho ho... soon he sent me to harbourfront and i went home by bus thr... i am home now... :) out for so long... i gonna take a bathe liao... coz chao chao... my heart is missing him alot... >.<~ i dont think he know.... my baobei... *Hugz*
i will post some meaningful stuffs again later... (mayb) see my tiredness... :|
-miss him by my side-

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 8:34:00 PM

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:: Friday, September 26, 2003 ::

chemistry between us.

I am attracted to you
Like an electron to a proton
Together we form an ionic bond
Though we are opposite charged ions
I am drawn towards you
Our love is unique as an orbital
For only two electrons can fill this space
As my love for you increases
My energy level rises
I am in this excited state
Increasing the tendency to form a chemical bond
I was an element
It took you to make me a compound substance
Falling in love with you is a chemical reaction
Which cause my love for you to grow
Ours is an exothermic love
Each giving of love not just absorbing it
Sometimes you do something especially nice
Which speeds up the chemical process
Like a catalyst in my increasing love for you
I realise we have our inhibition periods
And sometimes I am selfish enough
To be an endothermic reaction
Only absorbing your love
The feeling i have for you is so intense
It cannot be measured in kilojoules
Often I have to make a qualitative elementary analysis
To understand and love you more
But i don't expect to know your empirical formula
You are too complex a person for that
WHEN YOU ARE GONE, I AM A NOBLE GAS
AN INERT SUBSTANCE
WHEN I AM WITHOUT YOU
THE WORLD SEEMS STILL
AND I AM AT EQUILIBRIUM......

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 11:42:00 PM

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how did i fall in love with you....

remember when, we never needed each other
the best of friends like
sister and brother
we understood, we'd never be,
alone

those days are gone, and i want you so much
the night is long and i need your touch
don't know what to say
i never meant to feel this way
don't want to be
alone tonight

what can i do, to make you mine..
falling so hard so fast this time
what did i say, what did you do?
how did i fall in love with you?

i hear your voice
and i start to tremble
brings back the child that, i resemble

i cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
don't want to be,
alone tonight

what can i do, to make you mine...
falling so hard so fast this time
what did i say, what did you do?
how did i fall in love with you?

oh i want to say this right
and it has to be tonight
just need you to know, oh yeah

i don't want to live this life
i don't want to say goodbye
with you i wanna spend
the rest of my life

what can i do, to make you mine
falling so hard so fast this time
what did i say, what did you do?
how did i fall in love with you?

what can i do, to make it right
falling so hard so fast this time
everything's changed, we never knew

how did i fall in love with you........

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 11:38:00 PM

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those lil memories...
*esplanade was a nice place that night... (240903)

yesterdae was a perfect weather to sleep.. the wind was blowing gently into my window thru' out the night... i cuddled in my bed as i listen to a song..
i fell asleep soon.. letting the song to repeat.. i dreamt of so many wonderful things that will never come true in reality...
hai... how i fell in love with him.... >.<

*never forget the people n friends you have lost, and those dreams that had faded..........

somewhere isolated, somewhere peaceful, somewhere clear, somwhere cool, somewhere u exist.. - that is the somewhere i longed to stay.....

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 4:25:00 PM

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:: Monday, September 22, 2003 ::

the oridinary dae for me
feeling damn moody... not sure what happened... i really dont know... i dont haf the courage to let him know too.. what should i do..
my love... dont break my heart if u nvr meant to love me.... really have no mood to do other things than to miss you....
*cry to slp*

the romantic night.... always in my mind..

i will always love you like i always do.. *muacks*

how i needed you
how i grieve now you're gone
in my dreams i see you
i awake so alone

i know you didn't want to leave
your heart yearned to stay
but the strength i always loved in you finally gave way

somehow i knew you would leave me this way
somehow i knew you could never stay
and in the early morning light
after a silent, peaceful night
you took my heart away and my being

in my dreams i can see you
i can tell you how i feel
in my dreams i can hold you
and it feels so real

i still feel the pain
i still feel your love

and somehow i knew you could never never stay
and somehow i knew you would leave me
and in the early morning light
after a silent, peaceful night
you took my heart away
oh i wish, i wish you could have stayed

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 6:25:00 PM

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:: Sunday, September 21, 2003 ::

heeHee..
i changed the layout of my blog...
spent my whole day missing him...
love you always....
muacks.... will continue to add more stuffs in...

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 11:52:00 PM

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:: Thursday, September 11, 2003 ::

thE reasOns of absEnce....
tOdae was a right dae to drop in my post for the last few daes... although alot of things had happened, i had already got used to it.
now, all i wanted to narrate about, is my grandfather. i love him alot since young, he alwaes take great care of all his grandchildren, but @ that time he only have me n my brother. he had to bear those arguements, quarrels and nagging that started from my grandmother. Despite of all these, he continued to be a very good-natured person. when i was around 4~5, he taught me chinese chess, chinese writing and those brainstorm games. i am very glad that i have such a knowlegable grandfather. Another great thing about him is that he is a great cook! when we used to live in chai chee rd, he would be the one preparing the daily dinner for us. he would alwaes bring me to the wet market along the road which does not exist now. he would teach me the names of all vegetables n meat, but i was never paying attention. those little acts from him had deeply engraved in my heart, and i love him more than i love my father. when i was 11, when my father annouced to move to a bigger house that could fit us all, i could see his disagreement in his face, nobody saw it, he kept silent. we moved to hougang ave 1. i think that he might not get used to the environment that's why he was always feeling uncomfortable. 6yrs had passed, my parents divorced. He kept asking my mother to forgive my father but.. to no avail. after all the stuffs, my mother, my brother n me moved to a 2 room flat @ telok blangah. we were separated. during the first few nights i actually cried, i miss my grandparents, my cousins, my uncles n aunts alot. i had to act as if nothing happened, as if i did not cared about them. i didnt want anyone to know. 3months later, last night, i received a phonecall from dad. he said that grandpa was admitted into the hospital. i was so shocked, worried and sad, but once again i hid my emotions in front of my mother. "why all these things always happened to me..." dad added in that grandpa almost die... it was this statement that made my spine shivers. i remembered that i had a similar dream. my grandfather is always strong and healthy. i hope that he will get well soon and live to a long age.

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 12:23:00 PM

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:: Thursday, September 04, 2003 ::

mY lil birtHd@E...
slEpt @ 10.30pm lAst niGht.... diDnt wAit fOr aNy oF hiS meSsaGe.. dOzed Off sOon aftEr i thrEw on sOciaL sTudiES GuidebOok On the sTudy taBLe... mOrning wOke uP gOt 2 msG...wAs birThdAE wishing.. wEnt to schOol... tAkiNg amAthS n sOciaL stUdieS preliM exAm... *sbS* thEn aftEr thAt went tO cOmpaSs poiNt fOr luncH... sOon wE leFt.. sHipiNg n wEimiNg giVe mE a lil preSEnt... thanked thEm n i wEnt oFf.. in thE mRt i opEned Up... wAh laO... whY sO mAny pieCe Of cuT paper flyiNg all aROuNd my sEAt.... mAke me so mAlu cOz mAny ppLe wAtchiNg >.< .... i quicKly kEep aNd nap in the train...wHeN i rEachEd hOme n Open uP thE bOx aNd rEmoVe the cut pAper... *wAh* gOt 3 pAirs of eArriNg... lOl... i only gOt 2 eAr hOles... :X thEn tOnigHt dOnt knOw hOw tO cElebrAte liaOx.... bUt hOr tMr mOst probabLy fOllOwiNg mY clAssmaTeS n eX clASsmaTes tO zOuk... hEEheEe...
**sO surpRisEd thAt my fathEr n mY eX aCTually
rEmemberEd my birthDAE.... sO touCHeD... >.<~
**18 yrS old = frEedOm (cAn bUy CigArettEs, alcOhOl, bUy
4D, tOtO n sOccEr, cAn gO cAsinO in otHEr cOuntrY liaOx... wooo hOo!!! :X)

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 4:06:00 PM

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:: Friday, August 29, 2003 ::

QuoteS th@t arE mEAningfUL (tO me..)
* i lOve yOu nOt bcOz oF whO yoU arE, bUt bcOz oF whO i aM whEn i aM with U...
* nO mAn iS wOrth uR tEarS, anD the OnE whO is, wOnt maKe yOu cRy...
* jUz bCOz sOmeOne dOesn't lOve you thE wAy yOu wAnt thEm tO, dOesn't meAn thAt thEy dOnt lOve yOu witH whAt thEy haVe...
* thE wOrsT wAy tO miSs sOmeone iS tO bE sittiNg rigHt besIde hiM knOw thAt yOu cAn't hAVe hiM...
* dOnt cRy bcOz it iS ovEr, smiLe bcOz it haD hAppEneD...
* dOnt tRy sO haRd, thE beSt thiNgs cOme whEn yOu leAst eXpeCt theM tO

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 3:11:00 PM

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:: Wednesday, August 27, 2003 ::

vOw
This I promise you. I've loved you forever, in lifetimes before. And I promise you never... Will you hurt anymore.. I give you my word, I give you my heart, This is a battle we've won.. And with this vow, Forever has now begun...

Girl: Do i ever cross urmind?
Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Choose--me or ur life
Boy: my life

The girl runs away in shock and pain, and the boy runs after her and says...

The reason you never cross my mind
is because you're always on my mind.

The reason why I don't like you
is because I love you.

The reason I don't want you
is because I need you.

The reason I wouldn't cry if you left
is because I would die if you left.

The reason I wouldn't live for you
is because I would die for you.

The reason why I'm not willing to do
anything foryouis because I would do everything for you.

The reason I chose my life
is because YOU ARE MY LIFE

this is still valid.

. : p@stEd by [B]aBY-[c]Andi @ 1:50:00 AM

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